You’re gonna need a pep talk sometimes. That’s okay. For now, remember this: You’re awake. You’re awesome. Live like it.
hands up, we’re gonna have to do some soul-searching
take me back to the night of endless waves
bright moons and rhythmic shifts
where the air was cold and the touch was mist
the bodies warm and the blankets kissed
take me back ,
to the depths of your bare soul
Ishibashi Yui’s work depicts nature as a force reclaiming power from its human occupants. See more on Hi-Fructose.
The key to my lucid thoughts is simple. I write best when I read a lot. Maybe my brain is more well-prepped- the words flow easier.
Just finished reading Ready Player One and I am enjoying recognising some of the plot devices that I have learnt by reading another book. I am now about 7500 words into my raw as fuq straightforward fiction work but yeah haha I can’t believe that I even bothered to start writing, especially when I’m under such stress these few weeks. I guess stress does some crazy stuff to people, no?
Don’t expect like a killer work from me- I just need, and really want to create something out of words. It’s not a mega blockbuster- it’s a straightforward story really. Just excited to have it going for now. 7500/ 50 000 words! We can do this.
Meanwhile I am trying to pep myself up for the following week. Am not doing well for the semester. Emotionally I am all over the place. Not keeping up with school, music, family, friends or anything that I actually give a shit about. Am tempted as hell to attribute this to the thing that starts with the letter ‘M’ but in the end it just boils back down to me being inadequate. Ill-equipped. Careless.
Then again I’m not perfect so screw off really. Thanks again for people who stand by me. For insisting to help, to just stay by my side and check if I’m okay, seriously all of you are stars. I don’t even know how to express my thanks.
Spent like maybe a day gushing over a boy and I believe it is somewhat over. Haha well that was fast no? Easy to let go when it’s out there in the open, out of the system. /shrugs. I guess I fall in and out of love easily. Reaaaally easily.
Altogether this CNY has been a really mixed one.
- Glad to have some downtime to read and study and sleep etc.
- Glad to be back home with family and real dinner food.
- Bad cause well no business is open and I can’t find a solution to my problem now.
Also paid a visit to ahma & ahgong at the temple today, before popping by to the Hindu temple adjacent to it. Was hella scary as fuq to enter it alone, what with the intention of taking photos in such a sacred holy place. The temple is gorgeous though, and the people were friendly! The one guy that I talked to turned out to be Prof Gana’s cousin. Lol what a small world. And a lady explained Ohm to me.. and basically woah the rituals and everything are so intricate !! I am so impressed haha.
Lately I have been very escapist. And maybe becoming very.. unreliable. Irresponsible maybe? A huge chunk of me wants someone to fly in to save my sorry ass. Right now that someone needs to like have a printing company and shizz. Yeah yeah but I know I have to mop up my own mess and well let’s just say I am… probably, possibly, not going to do things like that for a very long time if I could help it.
If anything this just erodes my commitment level again. Well I’m sorry. Broken people don’t want to stick around.
1. Although it’s natural to feel stupid or bad, don’t stay in the pit of self hatred and despair. It doesn’t mean you’re evil, or that nobody should like you. It just means you are human, and this time you got it wrong.
2. Try and gain perspective by looking for exceptions – and remembering those…
Diatoms are the best and that’s all there is to it.
Studio Ghibli just announced its first ever TV series, and even more exciting it’s an adaptation of a book by Astrid Lindgren. “Sanzoku no Musume Ronja”, or “Ronja the Robber’s Daughter”, will be aired in Japan starting on August 31. It is a coproduction with 3DCG studio Polygon Pictures (known for animating some of Ghost in the Shell, among others), to be directed by Goro Miyazaki. More details are forthcoming.
The story is of a little girl named Ronja, the daughter of a colourful robber chieftain who lives in a castle high on a rock in a dark pine forest. She gets to know the creatures of the forest, meets another kid like herself, and questions her father’s life of robbery.
It will be interesting to see the new route Studio Ghibli takes now that it is making TV animes.
Source: Studio Ghlibi (Facebook)
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