Woke up feeling quite happy- then headed to school for training! Training today- Anna and I did 4-5 sets of fence batting, and Coach was down to help us too. We tried out the small black wooden stick and tiny plastic balls too! Lol was giggling at Abi cos she looked like a samurai cutting grass lolol. It was fun practice though! And hilarious trying to field these. 

Need to work on the fruit ninja move and cut the big swing. Also random: was with Jess the other day at Popular and they sold Fruit Ninja toys!! Throwing and fielding wise still needs work. Fielding especially D: Shall pick up scooping cuz it looks cool (Y)

Tried out machine today!!! Fun fun fun fun! Need to focus more though heheh. 

Had lunch with everybody at ABC, waited damnnn long for the mango grass jelly but it was worth it :)) Hurrayz cos I got a ride back with Li en in Pok’s car!! Yay easties (Y) Heard Lego House and A Team by Ed Sheeran in Cass’ and Pok’s car!

My family was assembling my sister’s ikea furniture- hahah her shelves and table are black, mine are white. 

lol I bathed and went to nua/nap——> deep sleep. LOL Was super full and tired lah~ Too tired to continue spring cleaning part two today.

Ah I finally remembered the main point of this post HAHA was chatting with Li en in the car about random stuff and water sports came up! She went diving before and it’s cool to hear her experiences!! Like how after you go deeper than 30m there’s a human condition called some Narc,.. thing lol I shall refer to it as a diver’s high. XD 
Apparently they carry two oxygen tanks down and it ain’t heavy down there- they have to wear weights to stay underwater. I’m quite chicken and only dare to snorkel- not sure if ready for diving hmm? We’d see but this is interesting :))

bye x

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Spent time cleaning out my closet *eminem*- three big bags of clothes- OUT! Decluttering makes me happy. Rearranged stuff as well, but got really tired so I shall continue tomorrow. Stuff crops up here and there and June and July look a little scary and packed. I know I have ten of thousands of excuses but yes I’m still trying to solve that. (<—- Easy, quit everything next year/sem)

Holidays- harder to keep in touch with people IMO. Everyone’s gone to do something else (including myself, haha I tweet so much less now.)and some effort is needed to keep in touch! Trying to be a better tutor :/ Hope that my tutees improve and learn well!

Hope the sun won’t be too blazing hot tomorrow morning! Good bye people of tumblr! <3

More about mental illnesses.

My hat off to psychiatrists- how do you create a clear, neutral space and not get emotionally invested in your patient? How not to bring your work home? And how to help your patient for something that is a mental thing and not a physical thing? How to help someone who is not in control??? 

So I was listening to Demi Lovato’s Skyscraper and it is so heartrending. I remembered her battling addictions, cutting and stuff like that- went to google and found a video of an interview. She started cutting when she was eleven, and her dark secret was exposed to the world on a red carpet photo- somehow the cuts were not covered by the make up…she also used to wear bracelets to hide them.

:/

She hit one of her dancers and that triggered a family intervention-she dropped out of tour to go into rehab- and found out she had bipolar disorder.

:’((((

Okay this is so sad I don’t even know what. I am reading about Bipolar now and um reading symptoms on illnesses/injuries is very scary because you never know what you might have. (ie. a pain in the thumb= possible fracture, a mole = cancerous, ringing in your ears: indicative of something else D:)

The scariest thing about this is probably this:

They may have distressing periods of great sadness alternating with euphoric optimism (a natural high) and/or rage that is not typical of the person during periods of wellness. 

This is scary because I have extreme moods DDDDD: (I can’t be the only one?)
But okay lah hahaha there are way more things to ascertain one has bipolar:

This inability to distinguish reality from unreality results in psychotic symptoms such as hearing voices, paranoia, visual hallucinations, and false beliefs of special powers or identity. 

Okay but honestly this is scary also:

A manic episode is characterized by extreme happiness, hyperactivity, little need for sleep and racing thoughts, which may lead to rapid speech. A depressive episode is characterized by extreme sadness, a lack of energy or interest in things, an inability to enjoy normally pleasurable activities and feelings of helplessness and hopelessness. On average, someone with bipolar disorder may have up to three years of normal mood between episodes of mania or depression.

^ = MONTHS OF SIANNESS? 

But: Look at the symptoms- kind of vague and applicable no? Like… horoscopes and personality tests.

During a manic phase, symptoms include:

• heightened sense of self-importance

• exaggerated positive outlook

• significantly decreased need for sleep

• poor appetite and weight loss

• racing speech, flight of ideas, impulsiveness

• ideas that move quickly from one subject to the next

• poor concentration, easy distractibility

• increased activity level

• excessive involvement in pleasurable activities

• poor financial choices, rash spending sprees

• excessive irritability, aggressive behavior

During a depressed phase, symptoms include:

• feelings of sadness or hopelessness

• loss of interest in pleasurable or usual activities

• difficulty sleeping; early-morning awakening

• loss of energy and constant lethargy

• sense of guilt or low self-esteem

• difficulty concentrating

• negative thoughts about the future

• weight gain or weight loss

• talk of suicide or death 

An important distinction between bipolar disorder and the normal emotions of life is that bipolar disorder results in an inability to handle daily activities. The person cannot work or communicate effectively and may have a distorted sense of reality (for example, unrealistically high or low opinion of one’s skills). 

Kinda just drifting through life, going through the motions.
I wouldn’t say I’m not chasing my dreams, I am kind of on track, but maybe I’m still tired or missing some magic spark…?

Not that I’m not content with life or whatever. <—- I think I’m still burnt out haha!

Well anyway! Today violin in the morning: working on tremelo eh?! Bring it on. Then went to meet Michelle to study and revise Intd 1 and 2! She’s going to Intd 4 soon and I need to revise for JLPT! Went for training after that, lol hm I think there was improvement in batting (as compared to the last training I attended), throwing… not so much obvious progress? SJ pointed out that I wasn’t batting with power yet. That’s true lol I shall work on that. Coach says we’re gonna train with like golf-sized rubber balls and thin wooden sticks- woah way to upz the precision in batting!

Then we did fungo and various fielding drills after the usual fence batting & long hits. My sailing gloves are worn out I need new gloves to avoid blisters! Then we went for supper at Ameen & Pam gave Anna and I a lift to the MRT! Thanks pam! 

Ok Imma go off~ End of what-my-day-was-like blogpost. Byeee! 

//p.s. I’m just not going to try anymore :)

• Learn when to give it up/drop it like it’s hot
• Strike when the metal’s hot. 鉄は熱いうちに打て

Disneyland (Hong Kong)

The trip to Hong Kong was fantastic :))) Of course thanks to my buddy here wenxin~~! 

(I like this picture)

Lol I am a little too lazy to blog about this but we shopped and ate a lot~~

(Also I have no idea what is taken where cos Im useless with all the names.. (Tsim Sha Shui.. Yau Ma Tei……… *gulps*) (Mongkok, Jordan, Harbour city area etc~)

FOOOOOOOOOOD

I went home with lots of loot. XD
Say hello to 4 pairs of shorts, one leather jacket (<333), tops, red low tops <—- been thinking of them since sec 4 -_-), sandals (lol stopped my whining, it has pillowy cushioning <3) and lots of bracelets and gifts for people~ Oh and wallet too haha. OH BEST BUY BEST BUY—> 2 1000PC PUZZLES FOR 10HK EACH! EACCCH! (thats like SGD$3 for 2 boxes of 1000pc puzzles. LOL)

Shall post Disney pics individually~~

Thanks x1000 to Wenxin’s dad and Mr Liu and family!!