three times tingles

feelz

Had a helluva week!

Was lots of fun haha but I was kinda physically burnt out by the 3 day insomnia and energy intensive activities haha.

Had ramen with Dori at Bedok! And awesomez durian ice cream ohmygawd my new vice. Am very glad that she finds a lot of joy in her work :) 

Had ramen yesterday too, with the Hs! Hahaha free taugay and eggs ftw!!! Had Melona ice cream omg wo hen xi huan :) Went watch hunting to no avail- and I shall look for a triangle black watch too hahaha indie hipster much? Was in a pick-fight mode yesterday- really grumpy from being tired!

Friendly- I think we made some good plays- this friendly was great practice and I hope everyone had fun :) The sun was blazing relentlessly though oh gosh too hot. 

Wore heels to an interview and up to now my feet still hurt. D:

Went back to FOC to visit mah boys & crystal :) Was so good to see everybody else in CAPT though! <3 <3 Carol, Bao, Abi, Ernest, Edwin, Mike, Kaiying, Xiaodong, Suankai, Brandon, Chings and all the black Y2s!! 

Was a super freeload senior though- ate and hung out and kinda became a burden D: Left my toiletries bag at home and didn’t have my contact lens box and solution. Joseph ze busy councillor borrowed solution for me though (trying not to pun here) wah I paiseh but thanks :))) Also thank you for your matric card lol I’m so sorry I forgot to bring it back:/

Hung out with Linghong too :)  Hugs <3 Heehee L6 nua-ing ahahha. Missing your cushions and blankets. 

Then hung out with Ken Elvis Crys CC!! We ate popcorn like old times wahahaha. Threw rafia string at CC. Played with rafia string w my fellow troller Elvis. HAHA. Talked till dawn, by then J C CC all sleep liao haha. Minds still functioning at 5-6am, not bad right?! :) So glad to catch Elvis before he flies for exchange in August :)

Morning!!! Went for bfast with CC & Elvis- then we sent some tehping over! Then I had a campus tour (thanks Jen!!)! HAHA was much fun and I’m super super thankful that Ken came along. Saved my ass with the chinese, troubleshooting and planning the route. Haha was great to have someone to plan stuff and facilitate the rather huge crowd. Wouldn’t have thought of OSA etc haha :) THANKS I OWE YOU :P And the kids were damn cute wth. Okay they’re not really kids kids but still, very young, friendly and basically a very sweet bunch. :’) 攀岩墙 bitches. HAHA :)

FOC BBQ~ Black seniors came back! Good to see everyone too :) Was mega tired again, but the sparklers were beautiful :) And yay to marshmallows :))) Didn’t take much photos in the end cuz it was really really dark ._.” Didn’t eat much either, not sure if feeling down from interview or shagness. 

xxx

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FIGHTO~

Monday- was busy doing work and all- brain was fried and I was so tired from the insomnia and day activities that I was zoning out during training. Which is good because my mind only focuses on that. That and the addictive song Rude.

Funny how I joined softball just 2-3 years ago when I first entered NUS. Wednesdays and Saturdays were days I blocked off for these years. My seniors were patient with me and taught me all they knew. They encouraged me, yelled at me, - everything to help me improve. Sometimes I felt like shit but at the end of the day I know that it will all be worth it.

Went to watch my first game in Kallang, can’t remember if I was on the field or the bench but it was sooooo awesome. My favourite diamond is the open one- I liked the space.

Some softball milestones & memories in my life:

1. First training- touched base with Eriks who was the manager then- got hit on the mouth during training by Suyee, my lips bled. But I came back again.

2. Started to learn batting from many many people, Fadz changed my batting stance from righty to lefty. So I field right and bat left now. When I get ready to bat, the fielders will be like ‘lefty!’. Hopefully one day I’ll be strong enough to make them go “stand back!” Hahaha. 

3. The day Li en adjusted my hips during training and I found new power in throwing- needed that so much to do outfield better.

4. Outfield training/pedalling in Chiangmai by Liping.

5. Zesa’s hiong fielding trainings- thats what the previous training reminded me of- the consecutive fielding. Not scared or even resentful for it, I just want to improve. Sengwei’s sliding practice.

6. Encouragement on the field. The feeling of security with Suyee as 1, Eriks on 2. Me on right, Li en as center. 

7. My first game as an outfielder, my first run home. My jersey, my cap, my slacks. My first football shoes. My first glove. My many batting gloves that are actually golf gloves. Haha. Long socks. 

8. Jamming my thumb when throwing with Yawen, end up skipping training for a while. 

9. Witnessing home-runs by SJ and Yawen

10. My favourite blue Catalyst bat.

11. Fking up in outfield and catching flies during matches. Being so frustrated and relieved.

12. Sixian’s words of encouragement and guidance all the way. :’)

Grew to love softball, grew to love batting, fielding, outfield, sometimes infield, sprinting, running, training. Love my team mates, love my field, the gorgeous night sky, picking balls from the drains. 

Love very much.

:)

I think I’ve grown a lot all around. Mentally, physically, experience wise. Not perfect but definitely someone better than the clumsy freshman who could not throw far, had awful fielding, had fears of being hit during long hits, shirking training feels etc. 

Just feel many loves. <3 I just want to try harder.

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insomnia

Haven’t been resting well lately. I get really tired from the day’ activities like training and going outdoors but when I go home, somehow I can’t fall asleep. 5am, 3am- and I still struggle to fall asleep. I’m really exhausted and my body wants to rest. But when I close my eyes I see flashes of light- probably ‘brain activity’?!

This is a real pain in the ass because I really like sleeping and it’s really affecting my mood and energy levels. So tired !!!!

Possible causes- stress again maybe. This is what happens when I am unrestricted to do anything. I cram myself with with goals and projects - and then I feel mega stressed out because I wanna complete them. 

Maybe I should really learn that I’m no superwoman and cut it all down. Biting off more than I can chew.

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fleeting,

but I’ll give it all I’ve got :)

In other news, sent out more resumes & made good progress with my online course assignments & projects :)

Cheers to you :)

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I’m gonna marry her anyway//

Lol so addicted to this reggae-pop jam!!

HAHA!

Okay so I finally recorded a video of me doing a mash-up I arranged a while ago. LOL. My previous attempts pretty much failed- so I just took a leaf out of Gabe Bondoc’s music videos- do like one take. Stop being perfectionist and shit cause REAL ARTISTS SHIP. 

Yeah so lol I uploaded it even with the me going off a little bit hahahaha. Ah well :)

Hopefully will take this more seriously and make more music for everybody <3

Aiming for a live gig though!! :)Thanks for all your support friends and skyedivers ;) And for liking/sharing/commenting my video!! Shared it for the first time on FB and I am quite surprised hahaha damn sweet everybody. <3

Thank you. I hearts.

//Funny comments:

Aud: You smiled at me right after I clicked the ‘Like’ button!!! 

(LOL)

Weixuan (after sharing my vid on FB): Say first my endorsement might not be very effective. It’s me endorsing after all LOL

HAHAHAHAHAHA friends you damn funny !!!

//edit

Haha FB is pretty amazing. Have been receiving surprising messages of encouragement, thank you all. xoxo

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So… I finally show my *beautiful* face HAHAHA SO PLEASE LIKE AND SUBSCRIBE IF YOU PLEASE <3

Many loves and many thank yous.

Timber x DJ Got Us Falling in Love (Skye Soon Cover)

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Maroon 5’s Maps.

The chorus reminds me a bit of recent  electronic korean tunes. But another dancey hit from M5 :)

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begin again

/SPOILERS SPOILERS SPOILERS

Spent my time giggling at silly things- just so many references and feelings I can identify with. A Sylvia Plath reference? Hahahaha how did you even sneak that in really. The ballet scene. Lulz. The band. The prodigy violinist. Hahahahhaha. 

An endearing movie- could be better but I think we’re too spoilt by blockbusters. Enjoyed it though :) Music movies :’) Just very relatable. Didn’t like some of the song choices but yes. Damn it I can hear arrangements without being drunk. Hope to create new material for my future gig :)

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/accurate

Dentist

To dream that you are at the dentist suggests that you are having some doubt over the sincerity and honor of some person in your life. You are experiencing some momentary anxiety or pain, but you will be a better and stronger person for it in the long run.

Well… there was also some battle going on in my dream. A claustrophobic room. Dubious characters in my ‘team’. Fighting for survival. Getting lost in Japan Disneyland. Being late for an appointment. Disappointing people. Getting caught. A familiar face but now cooler- you have an ear stud now!  Haha. I missed you. Think you’re the only reason this dream didn’t turn into a full fledged nightmare.

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//just an ordinary, dispensable human in your world

wrote a half song on the bus back home- kinda emotionally drained now.

this song is kinda raw and vulnerable for me and I won’t be developing it cause it kinda pains me when I sing it. But for now it helps me express everything and helps me to heal I guess. Sent it to a few friends, don’t intend to share it anymore, but you can always drop a line if you would like to hear it. Thanks for staying with me, I know I’m hard to understand sometimes.

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soooo

Relistening to Fancy and I realised that I like Charli XCX, not Iggy. LOL!!

Was so excited when Charli’s Boom Clap played during Fault in Our Stars!! Never heard the song before but her voice is distinct enough.  So awesome to identify singers from just their voices. Satisfaction max. Keke.

/edit: Hmmmmmmm not very impressed by their live perfs though

/edit2: Charli reminds me a of a younger/pop version Lorde. (like Lorde isn’t already young enough)

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got no time for feelin’ sorry

^ paramore

Alrighty let’s see. Woke up this morning feeling extremely drained, achey and pangseh-ed, and hence very cranky. Spent the morning making my LinkedIn Account!  Decided to go for a fun angle since I’m not aiming to work for a straight-laced company anyway. 

Finished another book, called Likeonomics. Makes a good point about the human likeability factor and relationships in today’s world. 

The rest of this post shall be devoted to softball reflections, haha.

Well… so yesterday I was feeling up for it so I ran extra two rounds around the field, before actual training started. So I did a total of four! Hahah! Big leap from a few weeks ago where I was panting and mostly dying. Shall keep it up and gun for better speed and stamina though. HWAITING!

Then throwing, new complex pattern throwing drill by coach- haha I realised it takes some time for me to absorb information. Or at least things that require muscle memory and some kinda planning/coordination. We had enough to play a slow pitch game so we did! Haha was fun! Was put into third base though ohmy. Kinda suicidal since my usual position is outfield and right. The sudden role reversal of being left and infield made me unable to function haha. Mental breakdown. All this nonsense about ‘being flexible’ and ‘adapt to new environments quickly’. Ah naw, I’m not the best candidate. It is true- those who know flexibility - also know everything. Ie. you can only work around the rules when you actually know the rules.

Made stupid errors and sometimes yes didn’t give it my all because there were people covering my ass. Got scolded kinda but the worst thing in team sports is the guilt that you didn’t do enough. Morale was really down. Errors can really kill people mentally and beat the entire team down.  But yeah all through it I was like ’ don’t give the hell up”. So yep. Softball really challenges me to step up and grow. I need to learn my shit and stay calm.

Trainings end really late nowadays. Got a lift back home though yay! Thanks to Josh and some self-inviting nonsense.  I really need to start remembering the names of the guys team and not be such a bitch :/ Sorry new team mates your original destination became displaced haha!! 

End of softball post.

Other thoughts after reading the book, and other observations along the way:

  • I have really thoughtful and kind friends. I haven’t even found my bearings and already he gives a suggestion on how I can go home. *_* Thank you my brain was not functioning. 
  • Treat people the way you want to be treated.
  • Try not to hurt people if you can help it…
  • And always ask how you can help! Help if you can help it!
  • Impatience is my flaw and strength. /shrugs I am unapologetic.
  • Say no. Your energy is limited. Make full use of it.
  • Toxic people: drop ‘em like they’re hot
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WHEEE

Starting on my third Coursera quiz today: Social Psychology. Am pretty excited because I never got to do this in NUS haha. I completed 3 weeks of my drugs course so far, didn’t start on the business one with Futurelearn because I couldn’t cope (and honestly also because I’m a Coursera bitch). 

So far this lecturer is very much like Charles Carroll- bald, but super passionate about his subject and interested to engage you in the course material. Also includes like videos of the notorious Stanford Prison experiment which I have always read about but never got to watch. AIEEE I miss school days already :) I am part nerd part geek (geekerd, lol). But truth be told I think most nerds nowadays aren’t very socially inept. Especially when they have forces like social media and multiple blogging tools backing them up.

Spent the morning working on my resume and portfolio. YOSH! Big thanks to Yilin for your help :) 

Aight Imma scoot, have a fab week yall <3

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the old sound reminds me a lot of The Kooks.

Ooh I found a live. I love the bass on this.

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