three times tingles

if I see you next to never/how can we say forever?

Hahha ^ our last minute song change! 

Woke up at 5 am today-slept early in a bid to reverse my body clock. Finished reading World War Z yesterday!! Arghh haha so unprepared for a zombie attack. Haha need to put a weapon in my house to blast some brains in case of emergency.

Went back to CAPT to practise- so much nonsense going on hahaha hope I don’t break down and laugh during the performance LOL!! The band is cray cray. Perf tmr! Yay :D

Then Junhao Chenchuan and I headed to Foodclique for lunch haha was soooo huungry. Ended up hobo-ing there for hours just talking and talking haha!! :D Apparently we are waterfalls, so refreshing. HAHA d’awws

I am… an escapist. Have started to tell people who ask me about my job search that ‘I will start looking in August’- sounds more legit than ’ I just don’t wanna work yet’ and it buys me more time really HAHA. Well I just need to tie up some loose ends now and like, enjoy my summer holiday!!

Met Joshua at the bus stop- haha so stoned from intern work! Everybody is going to Canada for SEP next semester- JH, Matt, Wenyi, Carol, Joshua, and more!! :O

Then went home to pick up some omiyage and headed to Kai’s for her bday gathering :))

YAY! So good to see everybody. We had a feast cooking meat & steamboating, followed by more snacks and drinks. Lol.  KAI LIN HAS TWO NEW ALPACAS WHAT IS LIFE

Heheh much love xx

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Met this adorable mother-daughter Shibu Inu combo on the way to the old cedar wood forest in Hakone! Meet Fu chan the mama, and Umi chan the daughter :) The kind shopowner gave us bunny shaped biscuits to feed them, and we had a nice chat :)

Met this adorable mother-daughter Shibu Inu combo on the way to the old cedar wood forest in Hakone! Meet Fu chan the mama, and Umi chan the daughter :) The kind shopowner gave us bunny shaped biscuits to feed them, and we had a nice chat :)

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A cutie pie I met on the Philosopher’s Path 哲学の道 in Kyoto! Had a brief conversation with the owner, this dog’s name is Win and used to be an ex-guide dog! 

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Osaka, Japan

Osaka, Japan

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floating

I won’t lie and pretend that I know what I’m doing. Going to need more time to settle down and figure things out. Then there’ll be this little voice which goes, “What if you never figure it out?”

And that’s where I think I have to consider that I’ll never have an answer, and maybe I should just get going anyway. Like how Deng describes his Chinese policy- by crossing the river by touching stones- cautious.

Was reading this zombie fiction, ‘World War Z’- when some navy people stole a submarine and ‘went dark’, isolated from the rest of the world for a year. I think I need my space again and I might wanna ‘go dark’ too.

Before I actually start and find work- I want to settle down and finish all my projects, read some books, and just finish up things I have always left hanging.

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unsettled

Been having bad dreams lately. I used to have interesting, pleasant dreams.

Recently I had one where two seniors and I were trying to make our way somewhere- we got lost in a complex building and eventually they found a way out- by crossing this flimsy pebble bridge suspended high in the air by.. transparent nylon strings above a huge school fish pond. Like hell was I going to follow their route, so I kinda let them abandon me and find another route myself instead. They were not my friends, mostly just indifferent. Hmm.

Today I had one where I was trying to sleep but there was this tick tick tick sound- it’s true, when I was younger I could not sleep with clocks that were really loud. The setting was in my old house- and there was my sister and some other characters - but generally the feeling is crap and anxiety.

Maybe I’m stressed or something.

My dreams used to be nicer. There are days where I can wake up feeling loved. Or days where I have conversations with friends in my dreams. Once I even had a class outing. 

Going downhill, I see.

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—National Geographic MAY 2014, Love and Loss on the Seine
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mmmm

finally started making the musical video and gosh just reviewing the footage I’m like ugh I might not have enough of what I need. Possibly because I was juggling other things at the same time and couldn’t film 24/7 or enough of everything that was going on. Like how do I video when I’m doing my pubs stuff with my team right? And as a result there is little of them which sucks cause they’re a great bunch and I owe them a lot.

And… film-making - super rusty at it!? Not even sure if I should put in stuff like people going off pitch haha.

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My first ever Chinese original! 

Came up with the lyrics and melody in Taiwan- pinned down the chords on the piano eventually (LOL turned out to be simple chords heng? hahaha) But damn, it’s really hard to sing and play piano at the same time =_=

My chinese pronunciation is pretty shite god knows why when I grew up in a chinese environment (schools, family etc) too ang-moh-nised by all the english records I listen to I guess haha oops. Trying to enunciate clearly kinda came in the way of trying to convey the feelings so I gave up and focused on delivering notes and feeling instead. And like, try to breathe LOL. Techniques suck. But I still like my song. Haha.

Not the best version of this song, can hear a fully produced one by a powerhouse singer like g.e.m. singing my song, complete with those orchestra things they use in chinese ballads and of course the drums :D 

Don’t really have the habit of sharing my music on Facebook, shy or something I don’t know. But all my songs are pretty much honest so I guess whenever I make one , cover or not, it leaves me kinda vulnerable. Someday when I make something really worthy! 

But still, thanks to all my friends who share my music, listen to my music and give me feedback! Always nice to hear your thoughts. Thanks a billion xxx 

More chinese songs coming up next, thanks to my 方文山 hehehe. And eventually I think there will be a hokkien song HAHA!!

love xx

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yay!

I had a brilliant day! Started off really wonky- was kept awake by the coffee buzz from the previous night , what a dumb idea TH. You know your body the best, why’d you do that for *lily allen voice*?

Was just in time though :D Caught up with Chanel and we spammed two movies hahaha. X-men and Maleficent!!

I really liked X-men- was so good to see the old crew back- Storm, Jean, a glimpse of Rogue, Scott even, though I don’t like him much. Felt that there was so much going on, feel like watching it again!! :D Was also thinking about how Marvel is a good company name- it has nice connotations- promises to wow and amaze.  Team it with the flashy pop-art comic graphic styles and it’s hip.

Maleficent- Angelina is gorgeous. The fairies are bimbotic, and is one of them Ron’s mum? Hhaha :D

Had astons for lunch!! :D Thanks for a great time Chanel!! :)

Headed back to CAPT for our practise session. Haha so many feels. Met Edwin on the way there on 196 HAHA what a coincidence!! We got the same grade for our language modules trolololol maximum. Met Zac too in CAPT! Haha wasn’t expecting so many familiar faces on a random weekday. 

Jamming was great! A bit rusty- haven’t been singing much and yikes, even till now Happy is a tricky song to sing. Hope to have time soon to up level for guitar! And learnt new drum rhythms from Darren MUAHAHA!!! So happy hehehe best teacher evar.

Tried the bass. Totally suck at it. LOL. So much for wanting to replicate Beck’s bass line for Spice of Life. 

The boys really ham it up for liu xing zhu jiao and I love their chemistry for performing together!! Haha :D 

Feels strange as hell to be in CAPT but without access to cards and all muhmuhmuh. 

Green line back with Junhao! Amazing memory hahaha so funny recounting old experiences trolol. Some of the stuff JH says are really quite wise haha. I have the huge ass issue of leaving CAPT behind- it gave me so much love and memories, it’s kinda hard to move on when you felt so much joy. It might also keep you from living in the present as well- something all my zen reading always reminds me of. Guilty as hell of dreaming for the future and also thinking about the past. 

When I can’t sleep, I read old letters and notes. Sometimes I’m really surprised by what people write to me- haha, they’re reminders of who I was, and what we were together. Went through the old SJ file and lol at the things seniors say- was I really so obvious and depressed as a Std 3?  And.. nice things friends write - super d’aww like so many years down the road. 

I myself don’t remember what the hell I write to people- usually I just write what’s on my mind haha and assume that you’ll like to read it. Haha maybe the ghosts will catch up to me one day- especially the terrible handwriting? Hahaha.

So anyway, a nice, wise quote from JH:

"Moving on is not forgetting, but you can remember and gain strength from the past to live in the present"

How nice that I watched Days of Future Past today hahaha.

And thanks to everyone who has wrote me things before! Your kind words encourage me always :) 

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back :D

was on the 1AM flight back to Singapore, it was so cold!! Don’t know how people tahan the freezing cold in slippers and shorts.

Spent the day catching up on sleep (jetlag, looolz) and then packing my room! Unpacked my luggage, cleaned up one area, throwing out things and tidying up everything. Wearing a facemask was the best idea ever, didn’t sneeze at all! Usually I have sneezing fits when I have decluttering sessions.

Met up with the Hs today :D Supposed to celebrate Quek’s bday but lol we’re like .. so old already haha it went without much fanfare o_o. But we still love you of course :) Great catching up with mah friends!

packed week ahead, also time to lose all the accumulated weight from the holiday eating.

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the ‘job’ topic is still … hanging around. Still in some sort of vacuum, not yet actively in search yet. Talked to Jieting in the cab- I am just very convinced that I would really really really prefer doing something of my own rather than work for a company. Maybe that’s the source of all the inertia for job search. J told me about her sister’s company and how distribution worked! Maybe in the end business models are the most important. And I should stop the elusive search for the perfect product. 

Also: since I keep searching out entrepreneurship stuff on my own accord, maybe I should just pay attention to what I do and stop trying to fit myself in moulds. A square can’t fit into a circle. (I was thinking, I think I can fit a circle into a square. Hahah.) 

And derp I don’t know if I have too low expectations about salary or what. Erm. /uncomfortable But I really want to find something that makes me feel alive. Or at least not dread.

TTYS :D

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<3

Went to Costco, this mega American based supermarket chain in Taiwan, all prepared today. Brought my phone to tune the YAMAHA guitar on display HAHA and went ahead to play some songs god I missed guitar-ing haha and Had tunnel vision feels for a while. Until my mum and sister told me to stahp and leave. Ohwells. /jiangyehao

Recent things Im currently in love with.

  • BECK
  • this bass line from Beck’s Spice of Life song. Got introduced to RaTM thanks to youtube comments not bad not bad
  • Taira really makes me appreciate bass lines so much haha, What a cool ass dude,
  • SPYAIR and their songs !
  • Fang da tong’s stuff! Wish I had more money to blow on his album. For now I’ll be a rather tepid fan I guess.

Ganbatte shimasu yo!!

Newest goals:

  • guitar level up- time to get to work.
  • be able to play all my favourite songs on guitar!! wuyuetian, RHCP, HERE I COME. 
  • consider getting my piano diploma and continue violin too
  • SWIM to be a koyuki god and get bigger lungs to project louder hahaha.
  • play outfield like one of the awesome seniors in AoD’s teams. Hahaha
  • bat like a monster.
  • erm.. for the sake of trying to look responsible, look for a job.
  • clean up the room and make more space
  • be a better performer and person :-)

Honki desu.

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